Living an involuntary hermit's life. Working towards living a healthier, gluten-free, hopefully cancer free life with my 2 dogs, 3 chickens and loving family.

Living with intention

When stumbling through life isn't good enough anymore..... decide to be yourself and enjoy life, and pay attention to Gods gifts all around.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Dreams, Who Needs Them!

I know!  Three posts in one morning:) Not wanting to be a Debbie Downer here, but honesty is the best policy on this blog. 

I slept last night.  Would have rather been up all night.  I wish I knew how to control my dreams.  I don't.  Dreams seem irrational for the most part, but sometimes it gives me insights on hidden thoughts and fears.  I kept dreaming all night that my cancer was back and dreamt every scenario you could imagine.  I kept waking up between dreams and would notice a catch or slight pain in my side and would think, *here it is, I have cancer in my side*.  I then would go back to sleep, continue to dream, wake, feel another pain and imagine the worse. 

Then I got up and for the second time in a week, I made the coffee but forgot to put the pot under the drip. What a mess!   Before now, I have only done this a couple times in my life.  So I continued my irrational thoughts and thought, *there it is, I have brain cancer*.  This is about the time LL got up and I told him of my night, dreams and brain cancer.  Well he knows how to deal with me and laughed and basically said my brain has never worked right and I have nothing to fear.

Thanks Honey..............I guess:)

1 comment:

angela said...

Its just your way to deal with things. Once you had dealt with them they will go away. Its really a better way than to acually have the cancer. Im betting its just an overactive mind and all will be well. sending you lots of love and light.