Living an involuntary hermit's life. Working towards living a healthier, gluten-free, hopefully cancer free life with my 2 dogs, 3 chickens and loving family.

Living with intention

When stumbling through life isn't good enough anymore..... decide to be yourself and enjoy life, and pay attention to Gods gifts all around.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Who does she think she is?

And that she would be me. Was feeling pretty cocky last week.

This last week I thought maybe I was turning some sort of corner with my healing. I worked the soil, planted most the garden (although it took me three times longer) and my digestion for the most part cooperated. But this week I just hurt. My digestion is not cooperating, my neoropathy is bad, along with arthritis, and tendinitis. And I am tired. Been going to bed around 8:00 the last few days and up throughout the night with pain.

Enough about how I feel. My question is, when a person is almost debilitated for a length of time, what is a productive activity to do? I was starting to feel useful again. But then SLAM, it's like being hit by a shovel. Any suggestions that do not require fine motor skills, large motor skills, going 20 feet from bathroom, memory, energy, or I am afraid a sense of humor? I guess reading other blogs and watching it rain is it for today. My niece and I were talking about what I was like before cancer and now after. When listing the changes, I couldn't help but get a little depressed. If she would have talked to me last week I would have been much more positive.

On a good note, I was able to dry a load of laundry on the line and ride bike to store before digestion, and joints started up today. Well it's 2 steps forward, 1 step back. I hope reading this post was not too tedious for you to read. It's a balance of trying to write something worth reading and writing for my own therapy. So today was Konnie's Therapy session.


Anonymous said...

Hi Konnie, thanks for your blog. I too am a 1963er and am fit and healthy but realise that am not as young as I used to be and a great day in the garden or at the sewing machine does has an affect on my body. Slowly slowly is how my hubby describes it take it slower and enjoy the ride take time to smell the roses and all that stuff easier said than done when you want to get so so many things completed. Hope your health continues to improve we all need to slow down and enjoy the ride and our most of all our most prized creation our children!

KJ's Restart Button said...

Anonymous, I wish I new who you are but thanks for the encouraging words. I so want to be "normal" in my body but can't force it to happen. Thanks again:)

lifeissweet16 said...


I would use the time to read every book I could get my hands on. And maybe when you're done with the TV boycott, you could rent old TV shows you loved or wanted to see but never did.

KJ's Restart Button said...

Renee, I like the way you think:) I will do that and I have decided on a new blog post project I will write about today. Thanks for the suggestions.

lifeissweet16 said...

Enjoy your time! I know it sucks to be stuck, but you have time now to do the things I wish I had time to do. Not that I want to go through a life-threatening illness, but there are days I wish I could just be home all the time.

I know -- be careful what you wish for, right?